all of my life, in every season You are still God

the title of this post is from my all time favorite worship song, "Desert Song" by Hillsong United. i listen to this song all the time, especially when i'm going through a tough time. i absolutely love the message of the song because its something that i constantly have to remind myself; that we should praise God no matter what the circumstance. its easy to thank God for his blessings when everything seems to be going the way we want it to. the hard part is remembering to praise him even when we go through difficult trials. its easy to get upset at God when things are tough or don't turn out the way we want them to, but at the end of the day God is faithful and does what is best for us. last year i pushed God away when things got tough and that did nothing to my benefit (it did the exact opposite). now i'm trying to learn to give everything to God, the good and the bad.

mackinley is one month old!

sometimes it makes me upset that mackinley's dad isn't in his life and that he doesn't want to take responsibility for his son, but then i realize how much of a headache that trying to be civil with my ex would be. plus, this way i don't have to share mackinley with anyone (except my mom, dad, and siblings who absolutely adore little mack jack haha), because i have found that i am selfish when it comes to my son haha i want him all to myself :) he is truly a wonderful little boy; a precious blessing that i am so thankful for! and ryan won't get to see how wonderful mackinley is, but again, that's his loss. but enough of the sad stuff because...