metamorphosis

this is my first post and i am so excited about it! first let me start off with explaining the title of my blog.  i chose the title "metamorphosis" because when you look up the word in the dictionary it means transformation from one state of being to another.  this seemed fitting for me because i am going through a very transitional period in my life right now. 

two years ago i would probably describe myself as a "normal" (who is actually normal these days?), lacrosse obsessed, non-studying (yet still manage to get really good grades), beach loving, care-free, high school senior.  then in my freshman year of college everything changed.  i met a guy my second week of school and ended up in a really bad relationship for 8 months (that whole story will probably be another blog post or posts).  so things went downhill and i basically lost all sense of who i really was.  then in the end of march i found out that i was expecting a baby.  at first i took this news as a negative thing because i never thought that i would end up a teenage mother (and a single one at that), but as my pregnancy progressed i realized how much of a blessing my baby boy (yay its a boy!) is and will be.  so now, instead being a full time college sophomore, i work two jobs, one full time and one part time, and i take a couple of online classes.  on top of that i am preparing for the arrival of my son in december.

back to my blog title, i feel that my life has been transforming.  i am no longer that care-free teenager i was two years ago.  although i am still lacrosse obsessed, i still love the beach, and i try to get good grades (its not as easy anymore), now, i have to be an adult.  i have someone else to think about now.  someone else to put first in my life.  is this where i thought i'd be at this time in my life? never in a million years, but i wouldn't trade it for anything. this blog will basically be a way for me to share my ups and downs of trying to find the balance of being a teenager while entering the world of being an adult and a mother. my metamorphosis.